She was the one who made me believe in myself. She was the one who opened my eyes to a better life. I cherished everyday of my life hearing to her songs , just to avoid myself from being depressed. Her songs , the vibes always making me feel calm whenever I turn on to her songs. Whenever I watch her in movies , she got me overwhelmed. She never stop making her fans smile and keep on continuing staying strong.

The day when I got the news that she entered Timberline Knolls , my heart almost stop beating. I felt dead and confuse. People around me kept saying that she took drugs , alcohol but I didn't trust them. Until the day where she finally got out from Timberline Knolls , the truth was spoken. 

She was on bipolar. Then , I got to know what was bipolar and now , I finally know that I am having bipolar. I slept at 5 am and wake up at 6 am , eat a lot and keep on continue eating. I always tend to get so jealous when I see my slim and slender friends , eating a lot of food without gaining weight in a big amount of fat. While me , I eat a little , I gain weight. I eat a lot , I gain weight. Eventually if I keep on doing the same thing , the same thing will happen.

There was this one day when my friend asked me ;

" Eyman , don't you wanna grow some muscles ? And lose your weight ? I can see from far that you're fat enough "

I almost cried hearing what he stated about me. Deep inside , I'm hurt. I just wanna be like everyone else , be thin and secure with their physical appearances. I tried everything , doing push ups everyday *in a very private place* , sit ups and all but in the end , gaining weight is the result. 

The moment I heard that Demi Lovato is going to launch her own documentary , ' Demi Lovato : Stay Strong ' documentary , I got so overwhelmed and can't wait to watch it ! After I spent my one-hour of watching the documentary , I started believing in myself again. She opened my eyes again , she opened my heart. She inspired me to become someone who believes in myself. Now , I am not ashamed to wear my clothes without having my stomach being hold to make me look thin. I am not ashamed to make people tease me because I stick to my status quo , physical appearances does not count but what does count is our health. Health is our wealth. If we are thin but we have cancers and all , that is not healthy. If we are fat but we always go out and pay everyday and apply the food pyramid in our lives , that is healthy.

Demi Lovato , you're my inspiration ! I wished that I can hug you from Malaysia !

from Malaysia with love,

Eyman Asyraf