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Wednesday, 28 December 2011


Assalamualaikum , tak jawab dosa , kalau jawab *hand on my chin , thinking* dapat pahala je lah.

I've been in a hyper mood recently.

So , here's a post to my bffs. I miss you guys a lot ! Can't tell you how much I need you now ! No words can describe how need I am of three of you. Honestly !

Emil and Abe

Amirul a.k.a Black

Gee , Emil , Black , Abe I miss you so much ! 

Miss you guys ,
Eyman Asyraf

what we could have been, 9:54 pm.


The day I first met youYou told me you never fall in loveBut now that I get youI know fear is what it really was

Now here we are, so closeYet so far, haven't I passed the testWhen will you realizeBaby, I'm not like the rest

Don't wanna break your heartI wanna give your heart a breakI know you're scared it's wrongLike you might make a mistakeThere's just one life to liveAnd there's no time to wait, to wait

So let me give your heart a breakGive your heart a breakLet me give your heart a breakGive your heart a break

Oh, yeah yeah

A Sunday, you went home aloneThere were tears in your eyesI called your cell phone, my loveBut you did not reply

The world is ours, if you want itWe can take it, if you just take my handThere's no turning back nowBaby, try to understand

Don't wanna break your heartI wanna give your heart a breakI know you're scared it's wrongLike you might make a mistakeThere's just one life to liveAnd there's no time to wait, to wait

So let me give your heart a breakGive your heart a breakLet me give your heart a breakYour heart a breakThere's just so much you can takeGive your heart a breakLet me give your heart a breakYour heart a break

Oh, yeah yeah

When your lips are on my lipsAnd our hearts beat as oneBut you slip right out of my fingertipsEvery time you run

Don't wanna break your heartI wanna give your heart a breakI know you're scared it's wrongLike you might make a mistakeThere's just one life to liveAnd there's no time to wait, to waitSo let me give your heart a break

Cuz you've been hurt beforeI can see it in your eyesYou try to smile it awaySome things you can't disguiseI don't wanna break your heartBaby, I can ease the ache, the ache

So, let me give your heart a breakGive your heart a breakLet me give your heart a breakYour heart a breakThere's just so much you can takeGive your heart a breakLet me give your heart a breakYour heart a break

The day I first met youYou told me you never fall in love


Give Your Heart a Break by Demi Lovato

Assalamualaikum.

I isolate myself from the crowd , turn my iPod on and scroll down to Demi Lovato and click to Give Your Heart a Break. I put it on repeat. It has a really deep meaning , honestly. I adore her so much , I just can't believe that she is so much better than she used to , I really adore you , Demi Lovato.

2011 , a year full of memories

This song resembles me as ' You ' in this song , I went through the hard times with her , good time too ! Finally , after I sat for my PMR exam , there's the decision. To choose or to not choose , To continue or to not continue , To love or to not love , To share or to not share and most importantly , To sacrifice or to not sacrifice.

Decisions , the hardest part of all , I don't think I'll remember it in the future but I hope I take this one day to remember it and banish it after that. I look up to myself , life must go on eventhough bad things happen. No matter how hard it is for you to accept it , life must go on. 

I remember that Sunday , those misscalls. Eventually I ignored it. It's not the time for me to accept it. Accept the fact that she's leaving me. I took my time , think of what I should do ? Decision , to whether sacrifice or to not sacrifice. I decided , I sacrifice for my own sake , else , worst thing will happen. The 2 hour call was epic , never knew that I took that 1 half hour to explain how miserable I am without her , how disappointed I am with her

Now , I found a girl , who eventually makes me happy. And I realize that she really does appreciate me. Just wait for the time , it's not suitable yet for me. I am not ready for anything. I don't want to disappoint anyone , I don't want myself to be disappointed. But , deep inside , I know that she can give my heart a break. Yes , the day I first met her , she told me she never falls in love.

I'll remember her birthdate , I'll give her present. I'll make her happy. I'll love her. I'll make her smile.

She can ease my ache...

I think I'm done. 

:') ,
Eyman Asyraf.


what we could have been, 4:33 am.
Tuesday, 27 December 2011


Assalamualaikum.

This post is very special to me , well , I wanna share my memories that I'll never forget with all of you.


#1 : Finale Piala Debat Perdana Menteri 2011 at PICC


On 14th of July , yes , my school Bahas team has just carved a new history. We won the Debat PPM. With all of our hardwork and escaping cheer training *I love the most about escaping* , yeah , went into the teacher's computer lab and start searching on our research. Well , most of the time , we play DoTA , haha. And the moment where somebody knocks the door , semua tekan Alt+Tab , then quickly click on Google Chrome. EPIC ! But in the end , alhamdulillah , we brought the Piala Perdana Menteri to Ipoh !

#2 : The Day Before 4th of October 2011 ( PMR )


Yeah , the one holding the Nilam book is me. That day , I apologized to all the teachers. Of course ! Siapa tak nak mintak maaf kan ? After all those times of sleeping in their class , chit chatting with friends while they are teaching. But , I do realize that they are the one who provides us knowledge , else , who wants to share knowledge with us ? Yeah , after apologizing , everyone went to Staroba Square and we sang the Rouse Up and Ilmu Panduan Hidup. Exactly after that , we all went to our KH room and took some papers for revision. LOL , study last minute , Haha EPIC !

#3 : The Hari Kecemerlangan Sekolah Tuanku Abdul Rahman 2010 ( April 2011 )


This is me with my bff , just before our performance of our 1-month-choral-speaking-training with the juniors. I still remembered the time when I had a fight with Emil about training at Dewan or in Bilik Kaunseling. Yeah , I still remember that incident. In the end , the day comes and we did our performance PERFECTLY ! The audience was clapping and we did our best !


#4 : Kem Bahas Bahasa Melayu STAR ( somewhere in March 2011 )


Gee , I miss these days. Yeah , it was on holiday. Everyone in Bahas Bahasa Melayu STAR sacrfice their holidays for our bahas training , to improve ourself. Every night , I went out with my f3 friends to have dinner outside , burgers only okay ? LOL , then we go into cybercafe , fight DoTA ! Hahaha , miss those times ! Oh yea , this makes me remember that SAYA PERLU BANYAKKAN LATIHAN DEBAT SEBAB SAYA DAH KARAT. LOL

#5 : Finale Debat Bahasa Melayu di UTP ( the day that SPM 2010 result announced )


Okay , I admit , tak macam debat pun kan ? Ye la , I forgot to bring my cam that time , terpaksa lah guna phone amik gambar. Well , this is their 6-storey library. Damn huge okay ? And we're at the 1st floor. There are so many books. Uncountable ! And most of it are for Engineers ofcourse !

#6 : Educational Camp at Kem Intan Suraya


While everyone was on their 3 day holiday , we , the f3 students went into the deep forest for an educational camp. Yeah , we enjoyed the camp so much ! What I miss was the chalet that got aircond. I really miss those aircond because I hang my shirt there and when I wear it , it was so COLD ! Yeah , and not to forget , the time when we all went for a jungle trekking to the Tasik Chenderoh dam. 

#7 : Program Kecemerlangan STAR - Sytra ( Sekolah Menengah Sains Syed Putra , Perlis )



Gee , this time , I didn't even focus on what of the teacher taught. Seriously because I was distracted by those girls who kept winking at me. Yeah , and there , I met Nur Liyana Johari and we became best friends until now. Haha , I like her way of talking and she's damn friendly !

#8 : Ice Skating with friends ( somewhere around June )


This picture was greatly taken by Harris Rashid , or as we called him as PCK. Exactly after my birthday *a few days after that* Me , Ahwaz and PCK went out to Sunway Pyramid and enjoyed the day so much ! Yeah , I never enjoyed myself without my parents till after maghrib okay. And yeah , I still remember how I tripped Ahwaz down when he first step his foot in the ice rink. Mwehehehe 

#9 : The last day of Mandarin Class with Miss Tang and Miss Wong.


I remember that day , yeah , it was after our thursday inspection. I quickly walked to my class because I was damn late , and I saw Afif *I called him as Abe* and we went to the Band room together. Suddenly , after we stepped into the room , it was dark and there's some light coming out at the flat screen. Yeah , as a reward for al of us , the Mandarin f3 students , we watched a chinese movie titled " Sorry Teacher ". Most of us cried that time , *tumbuk bahu* Kan Fik kan ??

#10 : My sister got overwhelmed at PICC


That's my sister , how old is she you'd guess ? She's just eleven and some of the people told me that she looked like she's 15. NO WAY ! And yeah , I hate her so much. Nehh , which brother who hates his sister so much ? We have the same chemistry I guess. So , at PICC that time , she got overwhelmed. Why ? She actually had a dream of becoming one of the TKC students. So , when she got there , she saw the girls wearing green blazers , green skirts and she told me " Abang , balik nanti kita tempah skirt and blazer hijau tau , sekali dengan badge dia " " Badge mana ? Sekolah mana kamu ckap ni ?? " " TKC LAH!! " I wonder why she obsess TKC so much ? Let's just wait and see this 2012 for her upcoming UPSR.

Well , I finally come to and end. It was hard for me to trace back all of the pictures just to make a Special Post. So , to those readers , do enjoy ! 

Omg I miss those days,
Eyman Asyraf



what we could have been, 12:08 pm.


Assalamualaikum.

That picture takde kene mengena pun dengan post ni. So yeah , I'm writing this post in Rojaks *as what they always call*

I never realize that today is the 27th December already , just a few days more to Twenty-O-Twelve. Yeah , I'm going to miss my life as a 15 year old boy in STAR. Hew hew. Tak sangka dah nak masuk form4 dah. Then , setahun lepas form4 , dah nak amik SPM. Wah , I can't believe I've gone through a long journey since I'm form1 in STAR.

There are days which I am very disappointed of what happened in school. There are also times where I enjoy school so much ! But , that's what I'm living for , kalau tak alami pengalaman pahit , macam mana nak dapatkan saat-saat manis , kan ?

Actually , I did not plan on writing any post except one special post. Well , got to go , gonna write another special post.

TTYL,
Eyman Asyraf.

what we could have been, 3:06 am.
Thursday, 22 December 2011



Assalamualaikum.

Yeah , I'm very happy for today. I could only say this one word

Alhamdulillah.

Do not know what more to say ? Yeah , I've worked so hard to achieve success and I got it as what I've expected. Yes , I cried for it. But the most important thing of all , I make my parents , especially my mom SMILED. She smiled broadly. Unbelieveable !

Sekolah Tuanku Abdul Rahman , 2nd in Perak.

Yeah , actually , we're first in Perak but since Sekolah Menengah Sains Teluk Intan got the same percentage and also the pointer same as ours , so , we share the title of 1st in Perak. But the official says that STAR is 2nd in perak.

To all the Viiinairats , I'm proud of you , very damn proud *speechless* But to those who didn't achieve the number 8 , its okay , work harder. Remember this , if you disappoint with your results , it means you disappoint with what Allah gives to you. Allah knows the best for you and He surely know why.

To my twins , Emil Abidin , eventhough you're late , haha , joking ! but I'm proud of you , proud to be your best friend ! I love our 'Sunny-Yuri Hug' just now , yeah , the exact moment after you got out from your car.

Speechless :'),
Eyman Asyraf.

what we could have been, 4:21 pm.
Tuesday, 20 December 2011




Assalamualaikum.

Yeah , that's Fitrie Roslan , a friend of mine from twitter. Follow him

To Fitrie , sorry , aci amik je gambar kau then post kat blog aku. Sebab cool gila , tu aku amik. Heheh

Okay , back to my topic here. 

I actually , realize that I've made my biggest mistake. Yes , my biggest mistake ever. I repeat , E-V-E-R , EVER. It involves about my feelings about someone. Yeah. 

So , as you all know , I've been single for almost 3 months now. I've been lonely actually , for 3 months but I know , Allah is there by my side. 

Recently , I confessed to a girl that I like her , I LIKE her , not love her but I don't know why I confessed. It was like , not me , I don't even remember confessing to a girl about I like her. Yeah , what I remember was , I called her , why am I so stupid that I confess to her ? I didn't even have that real feeling towards her. I don't wanna make her hating me if I tell her that it was just a game. I AM SO STUPID !!!

Honestly , I'm not ready for any relationship. I want to be with my friends , just my friends. I wanna be friends with all , I don't wanna be in any relationship. It makes me weak actually. To the girl I confessed , I'm so sorry. I didn't mean to hurt your feeling.

I can't think straight. Yes , seriously. Just so you know , I'm not ready for having any relationships. I don't wanna hurt my feelings and also someone else's feeling. Hope you all understand.

im sorry,
Ey Asyraf.


what we could have been, 10:22 pm.
Monday, 19 December 2011


Assalamualaikum.

I know , for the past 3 years , we had gone through a lot. A lot which makes us more matured in handling new kinds of stuffs. I know , most of us were very busy for this year , with the finalist of debat bahasa melayu in PICC , with the Young Sport Leader thingy and also the kem ibadah for form1 juniors. I really appreciate with all my heart of what you all have done towards our batch.

Yes , people change. Everyydayy. That actually makes our batch becomes more stronger. I never realize that in the end , I felt lucky to have friends like you all. Yeah , I know , some of you are too busy until you all don't even have the time to say ' Hi ' to me. At least ' Assalamualaikum ' , but yeah , I understand. 

Just this once , please , I beg at you , please , accept whatever circumstances that will happen. Results are coming out within few days and I admit , I can't wait for it. Nervous ? Yeah , for sure ! I know , everyone wants an A in their result cert. I believe , Allah has create the storyline for each of us to go through. And yes , I believe in Allah that whatever happens , there's a hikmah behind all of what've happen.

To my bff , Emil , I know , this year is the most hardest year for our friendship. Yes , I remember all of it. I cried for it though. I am grateful to have a friend like you and moreover , we shared the same birthdate ! Actually , this year has been the tough for you , I don't wanna talk about it. But , sincerely , from the bottom of my heart , I appreciate you as my friend and thanks , thanks for having me into your study group before we sit for our exam that time. Yeah , reading history facts while tune in into Girls' Generation songs , cool isn't it ? :') 

p.s: Guys , pray for all of us and make our teachers and parents proud of our ownselves ! 

nervous about result,
Ey Asyraf.

what we could have been, 12:54 pm.
Sunday, 18 December 2011



Dear You,

Thank you for making me happy for the past 4 years. Thank you for making me realize that I should not treat woman that way. Thank you for everything. So , yeah , I am still single , but I don't care about having a relationship. Yeah , I know you have a new boy in your life. But it's okay , I do respect your decision. Until today , I wonder , why did you leave ? Am I being a jerk ? Am I being too easy on you ? Am I not good enough for you ? Nehh , it doesn't matter to me anymore. I just wished I can find some other girls just like you. It's okay for you to be my first ex , it's okay. I know , you had gone through a lot. I don't know whether I am not that caring to you or not but some of my girl friend says that I am too caring. I cried a lot , lately. My life got boring since you left me. Honestly , yeah , much more boring than ever. But what to do , I need to carry on with my life. Do you still remember the first time we met ? At the Didik Camp ? Yeah , a few months before UPSR. Still remember that you were the one who sent me the letters while we were busy focusing in the camp ? Still remember that you were the one who gave your numbers to me ? Yeah , I cried about it. I know , I'm a guy , should not be crying about that. So , you still remember our first date ? Not the time when I was wearing my school uniform and we went to watch Pisau Cukur , no , not that time. Ala , the time when we go for a date at Ipoh Parade to watch New Moon together ? Oh yeah , still remember the time when we were in the cinema ? We ate Kit Kat together. Oh yeah , last year , remember the time when we went to watch Percy Jackson ? Yeah , your friend keep looking at us while we hold our hand in the cinema , I still remember her look in the eyes. Yeah , I still. This year , still remember the time when we went out together at Jusco in June ? Yeah , you with your friends. And also the conflict of your friends which I was the one who solved it. Yeah , I know , we watched movies separately. And hey , Hasif was there too. Haha , that's how Aqilah fall in love again with him. But who cares about them ? So , still remember the time I confess to you about me using you pictures as my Blackberry wallpaper for almost two months ? Know what ? I still keep that picture in my phone. Not going to delete it though. Remember the time when I gave you my mp3 so that you can listen to all of my favourite song ? Yeah , you still have it while I'm here , keep changing my ipods and mp3s. I just wished that everything can turn into memories of us , the love that I've been cherished for 4 years :') . 

Dear you , I forgive you. I forgive you a long time ago , but... I just want to keep that secret just with me. I think , it's the time where you should know about it. Thank you .

:') ,
Ey Asyraf.

what we could have been, 11:18 pm.

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