i am very very sure that  " what is easy but its hard ? "   pops up in your mind , right ? well ,its easy but its hard.. haha :D . okay , its easy to experience it but its hard to tell about it. you get it ?

i am sure that you all experience it. for me , those things will only happen when something huge , yeah , i really mean it , HUGE things such as :

- i met Demi Lovato down the street , greet her and took some photos

- i found out that mark zuckerberg had myspace account , too !

- i won a new Blackberry Bold 4 by just saying " i want it " out loud

- i realise that selena gomez lost her virginity 

-etc

-etc...

yeah , but dont take it seriously , all of that was just a joke ! :D 

its easy right ? to experience such things was too easy but to tell about it ? hard , totally ! 

let me tell you my story about it. as you know , my great grandma just passed away a few days ago. she died in the hospital but all of us are lucky to get to see her before she was summon by allah. it is easy to see her gone but to tell about it , some of us had to cry infront of others when telling about it. it is hard , not as easy as how we experience it. 

some of the people just take it easy but hey , you should alert with these kinds of things ! 

before i tend to stop writing/typing or etc etc , if any of you *the readers* would like to share any stories of yours , do tell me anything at here . if you have any suggestion on what topic i should write , do tell me about it !

gtg peeps !

gotta go,

Ey Asyraf

i really took a really long holiday since last week. first , my family went to malacca to visit my great grandma in the hospital *it was on saturday* . then , my mom attend an unformal meeting with her friends on her friend's wedding ceremony in shah alam. after that , we went back to ipoh.

but then , my great grandma who was in hospital passed away few days after i visited her in the hospital. i took it as a reason to make my holiday a bit longer *but i still loves my great grandma* . and days went over like a huge chaos. people started to call the gravedigger for my great grandma's grave and some tombstone carver to carve tombstone for my *do i need to repeat?*  

a few days after that , went back to home located in ipoh. i always wanted to touch my new dslr camera and also my laptop. 

reached ipoh on friday. went to ipoh parade on saturday and had a lil' fun. sunday evening , we went hiking. and that goes until NOW which means NOW i am blogging.

okay , officially , 9p.m will be the time that i'll be leaving my house to go back to my school *sekolah tuanku abdul rahman* yeah , some old boarding school.

oh no! i yet to pack my biology , add math , chemistry and physics book ! 

gotta go,

Ey Asyraf.

i decided to share you some of my experience which had made me become trauma in this situation.

have you ever give anyone any chances so that they can improve *or etc* themselves?? will you ever trust someone who broke the chance that you gave ?? is it easy to trust them back again ?? should i give him/her another chance ??

before you decide , think about it carefully because if not , it might break your heart or disappoint  you again.

before i go any longer , here is my confession :

- i gave *anonymous* not one (1) , not two (2) but THREE (3) chances !!

- i trust *anonymous* with all my heart.

- there are no more chance for *anonymous*

- take this as a lesson for you.

few weeks ago , we had an argument via text  message *funny right?* just because of this tiny little thing which happen when *she* called my phone , my sister picked up. *she* thought it was somebody else and *she* called me again. but i picked up this time. i told *her* that it was my sister who first picked up the call.

" dont think it negatively. it was my sister. stop thinking things that you should not think about " - moir

*she* hung up. i take it easy peasy. next two (2) days , i texted *her* asking what was *her* problem. i knew it was my fault because of what i said to *her*. that is when the argument starts. the next day , i went to KL for some media convention at KLCC ( kuala lumpur convention center ). that night *or before ? i cant remember* i texted *her* bff , she told me that *she* had a new guy. 

" its okay. i get it. ask *her* to forget about me , okay ? thanks , kbye " - moir

that sunday night , *she* gave me around twenty (20) missed calls *actually , i ignored it* hehehe. for the next call , i picked up and start raging on *her*. i told *her* everything that i felt. for almost 2 1/2 hour we talked on the phone. at last , me and *her* are finally over. 

fyi , this is the same ending as what i had experience over the past 4 years. yes , 4 YEARS ! is not a short journey. i went through a lot with *her* but i realize that it was all just a LIE... by the time i told *her* that we are over , i felt very calm , just like a big rock on my shoulder has been moved.

Moral of The Story :

for me , try to be honest with yourself and your surroundings. eventhough sometimes the truth itself may result a bad situation , but it is a great thing to feel free and honest with yourself. dont run around telling lies just to make yourself happy , popular and etc. etc. because it actually , in a long term , will result you a really bad situation. *too much to list it all out*

oh hey , my mom called me for tea time ! 

gotta go, 

Ey Asyraf.

it has been awhile since i wrote in my blog. well , actually i deleted my past blogs because it doesnt suit me well. dont you wanna have some drinks ? *gulpgulpgulp* phew , that was a nice frappucino ! i stayed up late and never gone to sleep yet. yes , 24 hours of not sleeping + drinking some coffee does not make me feel sleepy. 

so , what got into me to create a new blog ? i decided to express all my feelings + some experience in the form of writing rather than recording videos to post on youtubes. it feels awkward when you see yourself in the web , talking to no one *as if talking to the viewers* . it does !  believe me , you will feel like deleting all the videos that you have made when you posted on the youtube after you see yourself in the video *except cameo ones !* 

so , who inspired me to get back to the old days of me , writing in my blog ? actually , everyone inspires me ! yes , EVERYONE ! thank you , everyone ! *clapclapclap* wait a sec *gulpgulpgulp* haa , refreshed ! 

i started hearing my ipod and this song *which currently plays in my blog* makes me realise that i have left my blog dusty. fyi , this song is the first song that i ever posted in my first blog that i have ever made ! so , dont catch me ! ahaks*

before i go , i need you *the readers* to know that i am currently having some depression and trauma. i will tell you in my next post ! 

gotta go,

Ey Asyraf.