Sunday, 19 February 2012
Assalamualaikum.
I've been into a major break down. I feel dead. I feel less. I feel that my soul is not as how it should be. I never feel like this before. It's like you have no one to talk to. No one would wanna hear what I wanna say. I have no one to share story with. I've lost everything already , I guess.
Whenever I open my social network account , I feel dead. I feel dead when I saw those lovely lovey dovey wall-to-wall messages between a girl and a boy. Or a lovey dovey tweets between a grilfriend and a boyfriend. Its just that somehow I missed those days of having that 'someone' in my life to share things about everyday that happens in my life.
Am I that desperado in having a girl to be my girlfriend ? AM I ?? Or am I missing those days between me and .... Its just that I'm not into her anymore. Chances were given , not one , not two but three times and yet the things happened was just the same. I'm not going to talk about this again.
I've been having this conversation with a few of my girl friends , I just hope that they'll understand. I just don't know. Why do I need to be jealous of guys around me who's in a relationship ? Yes , honestly sometimes I just say that I don't give a damn fuck about it but in the end , that is what bugged my mind ever since.
Now , I'm stuck. I need my petsis to consult me about this. She owns a very big idea on how to solve things.
I.Feel.Dead.
Eyman Asyraf
what we could have been, 5:13 pm.
