Wednesday, 29 February 2012
Assalamualaikum.
Have you ever feel that you're depressed ? Feeling that you're insecure ? Feeling that you're fat ? Feeling that you're ugly ? Everything around you seems to be kinda different from usual. Have you ? Well , If you haven't , be aware of it. If you did experienced these kind of feeling , please do continue reading this post.
'That' feeling you have should not be in you. I honestly do not know what is this disease called but I kinda experienced it now and never stop bugging my mind. Here's and honest truth from me , I am not a slim and slender-type of body who girls would actually like. I might as well may say that I'm not fat either. Its just that my bones are big , bigger than everyone else in my dorm. Sometimes , I felt that I'm very damn fat and tried everything to lose my weight but nothing much happen. I tried everything but it seems that I can't , my body won't react to it. Know what , sometimes , I really wanted to have a body shape like those male models or being slim and slender is just enough for me but yet , I can't.
Feeling insecure , it's too odd. Everyone do experience this feeling. But have you ever wondered how to solve this feeling ? From my experience , I always felt insecure whenever I'm outside of my house. And that is the reason why I am always in my room , online and watch tv. I also feel insecure when I saw my friend calling his girl or her boy. Why ? Because it makes me feel sick , it remembered me to my past relationship.
After I gathered some of my own private problems , I kinda found a way to help improve my mood. One thing that improves my mood a lot is when I laugh. Laughing does improve my mood in a better way. Apart from that , you need to realise what is the need of you doing things that won't have the best result on you. Such as how I tried a lot on losing weight but in the end , it stays the same. So , what's the point of you keep on doing things that will give a negative feedback ?
You should believe in yourself whenever you do things that you really wanted to do. From my experience , I wanted a BlackBerry so much and got this one day where I start to save all of my money to buy a Blackberry and finally I got a blackberry. In fact , I've changed my Blackberry for 5 times already. So , what you should do is you should believe in yourself. Believing in yourself will convince you doing the very right thing.
Honestly , I still feel insecure and all but with the help of my friends around me , alhamdulillah , these kind of feeling can be settled easily.
the writer,
Eyman Asyraf
what we could have been, 12:20 am.
