i decided to share you some of my experience which had made me become trauma in this situation.

have you ever give anyone any chances so that they can improve *or etc* themselves?? will you ever trust someone who broke the chance that you gave ?? is it easy to trust them back again ?? should i give him/her another chance ??

before you decide , think about it carefully because if not , it might break your heart or disappoint  you again.

before i go any longer , here is my confession :

- i gave *anonymous* not one (1) , not two (2) but THREE (3) chances !!

- i trust *anonymous* with all my heart.

- there are no more chance for *anonymous*

- take this as a lesson for you.

few weeks ago , we had an argument via text  message *funny right?* just because of this tiny little thing which happen when *she* called my phone , my sister picked up. *she* thought it was somebody else and *she* called me again. but i picked up this time. i told *her* that it was my sister who first picked up the call.

" dont think it negatively. it was my sister. stop thinking things that you should not think about " - moir

*she* hung up. i take it easy peasy. next two (2) days , i texted *her* asking what was *her* problem. i knew it was my fault because of what i said to *her*. that is when the argument starts. the next day , i went to KL for some media convention at KLCC ( kuala lumpur convention center ). that night *or before ? i cant remember* i texted *her* bff , she told me that *she* had a new guy. 

" its okay. i get it. ask *her* to forget about me , okay ? thanks , kbye " - moir

that sunday night , *she* gave me around twenty (20) missed calls *actually , i ignored it* hehehe. for the next call , i picked up and start raging on *her*. i told *her* everything that i felt. for almost 2 1/2 hour we talked on the phone. at last , me and *her* are finally over. 

fyi , this is the same ending as what i had experience over the past 4 years. yes , 4 YEARS ! is not a short journey. i went through a lot with *her* but i realize that it was all just a LIE... by the time i told *her* that we are over , i felt very calm , just like a big rock on my shoulder has been moved.

Moral of The Story :

for me , try to be honest with yourself and your surroundings. eventhough sometimes the truth itself may result a bad situation , but it is a great thing to feel free and honest with yourself. dont run around telling lies just to make yourself happy , popular and etc. etc. because it actually , in a long term , will result you a really bad situation. *too much to list it all out*

oh hey , my mom called me for tea time ! 

gotta go, 

Ey Asyraf.